11:18 PM

Jamie is starting to come out of the "sleep all the time" stage, moving into the "sleep all day, up all night" stage.  I'll be witty (or more likely, by turns both cranky and slap-happy ) tomorrow.  For now, here's a few pictures that say more than I could...

First, a sense of scale for those of you outside of Logan:

Yes, it only took two pushes to get her here.  I'm not some birthing pro; if I had stood up, she would have fallen out.  She's TINY.  And yes, Nutella is the standard by which all things should be measured (that's a 13 oz jar, btw). 

Here's a more American standard of measurement for those of you unfortunate enough not to be familiar with Nutella (FOOLS!):

In other news, Gabriel is settling into his role as a big brother quite nicely:

How.  Cute.  Is.  That.

Jon's hand was for stability, not to force the shot.  But can we say, "blackmail?"  Awwwww, yeah!

I found the two of them like this during naptime...for someone who was terrified to have a daughter, he seems to be settling in quite nicely, as well.

Time:  11:38 PM.  Jon tags me out at 2 or 3...I think I'll watch some Bones.

Peace.

Warning: word vomit ahead

Things I learned yesterday:

1.  Just because you're married DOESN'T mean your spouse will automatically be told if you are, say, still in seeing your OB/GYN a week and a half before your planned delivery.  Even if he is your listed emergency contact, IHC will refuse to provide him with any information about you...which begs the question: what happens in the case of an emergency, like, say, a car accident?  If he shows up randomly at the ER looking for me, is he out of luck?  Do I rot, unconscious and alone, in a hospital room because I didn't give verbal or written permission for them to talk to him?  My emergency contact?  And speaking of permission, after six years of being treated by IHC facilities and providers, why was YESTERDAY the first time I saw or heard of the form to release information to my husband?  I'm a little irritated. 

2.  When your fetus has an erratic heartbeat during a fetal non stress test, your uber-careful obstetrician will bump your delivery up.  To today/Friday.  You will have to fight to schedule it on Monday, and that will only work when you play the "I need to arrange childcare" card and promise to come in if ANYTHING SEEMS WRONG AT ALL, since he's on call this weekend anyways.  Man, it BITES being in multiple high risk groups.

On the up side, you will have a VERY detailed ultrasound done and will get to see her "breathe."  Also, glare at you in her sleep.  She has a mean glare.  It was awesome, and not just because I got visual confirmation that she is alive and well (she scored high on the biophysical whatever it was), but it was very reassuring to see her diaphragm moving and to be able to count her fingers and toes whilst waiting for her to move them.  In the end, we're going ahead with the early delivery because the paranoid parts of me agree with the doc, and she's probably much better off out of my hostile diabetic womb than inside it, even if it is two weeks early (or four, depending on how you look at it).

At any rate, as most of you know, my scheduled delivery has been bumped from the 25th to the 18th...which is...lemme see...THREE DAYS AWAY.  Mercifully, we are mostly ready, physically at least.  Mentally, probably not so much.  I think my doc takes perverse pleasure in springing things like that on me.  He did it with Gabriel (On a Monday:  "What are you doing Thursday?  How about having this baby?"), and he did it AGAIN with this one, EVEN THOUGH I tried to beat him to the punch and we had already scheduled for the 25th.   And now...my to-do list for this weekend has changed DRAMATICALLY.  I need to...


1.  Clean the fridge for the first time in...a long time...so I can refill it with non-science-experimenty food for us to survive on next week.  Also, so I won't gross out Elizabeth, my SiL, if she ends up saving our bacon because labor goes long and I need someone to stay with Gabriel overnight.  Curse the mirror Alfreds (our Gabriel sitters) for having the audacity to have a life and leave town.  Sheesh.  They totally should have predicted this.  For revenge, on Monday night, I'm eating all the brownies they left out on their counter.  That'll show them! (Just kidding, guys.  I'm not upset.  But I AM going to hose those brownies, and there's nothing you can do about it.  MWAH HA HA HA HA!)



2.  Tease Jon because he nested.  This morning, he set up the bassinet.  And then--I kid you not--he flapped his arms like bird wings as he left the room.

3.  Sleep.

4.  Sleep some more.

Anyhoo, we'll keep you posted.  It's likely that I'll be scheduled for early in the morning because of the whole "medical necessity" thing (finally, a PERK!).  I'm sure there will be texts and facebook posts galore (facepalm!).  Feel free to call...I promise that if it's not a good time, I just won't answer the phone.

ALSO:  now accepting bets as to weight/time of birth.  Winner gets...something cool.  Maybe naming rights? Warning:  if anyone predicts a c-section, I will go crazy on them as only a hormone-controlled pregnant woman can.  You have been warned!

OH!  OH! OH!  For those of you who, like me, get spotty facebook updates, I have to share this with the world:

"Everyone is a genius. But if you judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." -A. Einstein

 Which I realized when I watched one of "my" kids with a massive learning disability scurry up a climbing wall like a lizard, leaving the "genius" kids in the dust.  I love that quote, even if it turns out that it comes from Alicia Einstein, not Albert  Einstein.

When being AWESOME isn't enough

Sometimes you need backup. 

True story!

1.  When you're 37 weeks pregnant, you might as well go camping.  You'll be just as uncomfortable at home, even if it rains, and at least camping, you have fun.  True story. 

2.  I've been thinking, lately, about how my children perceive me.  We passed a cool jeep the other day on the road and when I told Elijah I used to have one (that was even cooler), HE DIDN'T BELIEVE ME.  So I didn't even TRY to tell him about other things I used to do (like stay up later than 10:30 PM regularly or do things besides take naps for fun).  As a result, I realized that my current behavior means that my kids will grow up thinking that their mother/evil step mother is BORING.  Also, that she shoots lasers out of her eyes if she doesn't get chocolate around 3:30 every afternoon.  Thank heavens for sugar free Dove chocolate.  True story.

3.  Behold, the monster more terrifying than anything previously seen at the Alfred home...and we have kids with Godzilla obsessions.  You have been warned.  Behold! (again):

And that's just its FOOTWEAR.  Can  you imagine the monster that will WEAR those beasts?????  In fifteen days (HALLELUJAH!) we won't have to imagine.  MWAH HA HA HA HA!

We inherited a box of baby clothes from one of Jon's professors...including a little pair of Mary Janes.  Given Jon's reaction to the shoes, you would think they gave us something more like this:

That's a Mongolian Death Worm.  True story.

I'm trying to be the calm one, here, so in all my optimistic glory, I think we should hope for this:

I think that's a nice balance. 

4.  We skyped with the boys the other day.  I thought Gabriel was going to destroy the monitor, as he started trying to wrestle with Elijah/the monitor as soon as he saw him.  Complete with choke holds and eye gouges.  He just gazed at Ethan in awe.  I think he misses his brothers.  Early August won't come fast enough for a variety of reasons.  True story.

5.  Speaking of Gabriel, I think I'm going to send him to nursery with a name tag that says, "My parents named me GABRIEL," since apparently telling the nursery workers this and loudly and obnoxiously calling him Gabriel doesn't do the trick.  I realize that "Gabe" is an acceptable nickname for "Gabriel," but we don't want him called that.  Shallow, but true.  Other pet peeve:  when people call Elijah, Eli.  Grrrrrrr.  It's like nails on a chalkboard.  Exception:  Baby Gabey...because--really--it's his BABY nickname that will likely NOT follow him into adulthood.  After all, while my aunts still call me "Beegie," I don't mind because--OH YEAH--they used to change my diapers and chase me out of their rooms.  I think that gives a person some latitude in the name department.  Rant over.  True story.

6.  I'm definitely ready to trade long blocks of sleep for dietary freedom and bladder capacity (although in 16 days, I'll probably regret that statement).  True story.

7.  Speaking of sleep, I found this the other night at 2 AM when I couldn't sleep.  Oh, the irony.  The composer is Eric Whitacre, who is probably a diva/DB (as is common with many talented people), but who is a diva who wanted to be "the fifth member of Depeche Mode or the Cure," which made me like him even more.  I've always like his stuff, this is one of my favorites.  True story.  Enjoy!

Eric Whitacre's Virtual Choir 2.0, 'Sleep' from Eric Whitacre on Vimeo.

(Note:  the choir consists of people who sent in web videos of themselves singing the various parts, which were then scrubbed and edited into...that.  Freaking AWESOME, it is!)